Amy Hit The Atmosphere

I feel as though it is completley acceptable to love and care for someone throughout your life, long after they have left. But how are you supposed to grow strong and let go of all of the pain if they keep coming back?

I want to be on good terms with you but I don’t know how I am supposed to do so if you keep contacting me. I love you, I always have and I always will but you are not good for me and I cannot live my life with you in it.

I so desperatley want to be strong but I am not ready for a friendship. It has been two years, yes, I know, but it may take me ten, or fifteen even I don’t know.

I haven’t seen you, touched you, heard your voice in over two years now. It still isn’t enough.

Please stop telling me that you love me and that you miss me. I cannot tell you the same. I love you and miss you, just not the way I used to. It’s a longing I have that I know will never again be fullfilled.

I think about you everyday but I also ache too. I cannot maintain my happy relationship with my wonderful boyfriend if you keep contacting me. It is just too painful.